What a week!!! I got through something hard without a true slip off! I held tight to coaching and step work and felt the emotions, and came out stronger on the other side. It gives me hope for the upcoming double header in October, which is typically my fall off point. But, it is not going to happen this year! I have a plan that I am working on and everyday it gets clearer.
This morning I did measurements and weights...I am still at my starting weight from December, which means all the changes and fluctuations are balancing out as my life has been in a transition mode since then including changing jobs, working two jobs and going after this double masters. The weight I gained in this, I lost. But wait there is more! I am down 41.1 inches with 28 of that lost in my waist, hips, belly apron, and the biggest part of the belly in the torso area!! I am super proud of that! It also has shown me what is possible when I half ass it....what is possible when I put my whole ass into it??!!??
The funny part is I am feeling like I am standing on the edge and I have two choices, step back in fear or jump...that fear only chains me to the now, living or just surviving in the current season. I mean they say nothing changes if nothing changes. Faith that I can fly will be what moves me forward and this morning it hit me. I
STILL have a fear of success when it comes to health and fitness gains! But wait, why?? I know who I am is tied up in the fat cells and I do not have to do it at a fast pace. I can do it in the way that is needed to ensure that I can get acquainted with the next level version of me that comes from that current season, I can take a moment to adjust and live in it! I just can't get comfortable, there is still another leap I have to take!
Which leads me to the next aha of the week, after spending 2 weeks getting the environment back to where I wanted it to be to remove so much focus from the to do list, I am ready to layer back in my fitness and nutrition elements. I am using tools I have and digging back into the coaching and lifestyle that worked so well in March of 2017 that started this journey I am (After starting in August of 2015 dealing with a food addiction) on. Ready for this...I am taking it back to complete basics, move my ass and drink a shake. That is it! Drink the shake, move my ass! For 14 days that is the focus. August 19th to Sept 1st...sounds simple enough. The reason I am stripping it back this far is this is the principal that made sense and it jump started a lot of where I am today.
This is my way of taking action and using what I have. I did not realize how much the environment was taking a toll on me till I started taking the actions needed 2 weeks ago. The actions I took there spurred me looking at other areas that need action! I love coming home now, I can relax and I can think. I also can do the workouts and meal prep without excuses (this weeks chicken is marinating as we speak!)!!! I am an introvert so I do like to be home, but I no longer just sit at home. I am losing that rat on a wheel feel too which is a huge change in mindset. I can not wait to kick off this two week block with the new tools and new layers to apply. I also started something last week and so far have about seven days of using it and no threat to my recovery....intermittent fasting.
What is working for me (see disclaimer, not something that I am recommended, just something I am doing.) is I eat dinner by 7 at the latest and I do not eat anything after dinner till around 8:15-8:30 the next morning, I do have my coffee around 7:00-7:30ish so I am getting about 12 hours of nothing but water and tea. I am sleeping better and I am also getting my eating on a better schedule and finding that snacking is slowly becoming better. I am celebrating this week one changes and can not wait to see how it plays into the plan of move my ass, drink a shake for the next 14!
Wrapping up this weeks blog, I learned a bit more about living life on life's terms and finding ways to make it fun! I am learning how to fly even if I fell on my face a few times! This week I seen some friends celebrate some huge wins and instead of wishing I could have that results, I celebrated them, said look what is possible and looked at what I could tweak to get that next level I want to! By doing this, I am keeping the self respect I have fought to find and I am instilling self-discipline into it. If I know that it is an issue that I have, I am looking deeper into it, I am digging in and figuring out how I can move around it instead of sitting on it and trying to only plan my way out of it! I can plan it, I can use all the stickers, all the pretty pens, but I do not actually take the actions it is just words on paper and that gets me no where near my goal! So this week...I am going to focus on this phrase
and remember that every morning I start out with:
Till next time y'all:
-Audie
Wrapping up this weeks blog, I learned a bit more about living life on life's terms and finding ways to make it fun! I am learning how to fly even if I fell on my face a few times! This week I seen some friends celebrate some huge wins and instead of wishing I could have that results, I celebrated them, said look what is possible and looked at what I could tweak to get that next level I want to! By doing this, I am keeping the self respect I have fought to find and I am instilling self-discipline into it. If I know that it is an issue that I have, I am looking deeper into it, I am digging in and figuring out how I can move around it instead of sitting on it and trying to only plan my way out of it! I can plan it, I can use all the stickers, all the pretty pens, but I do not actually take the actions it is just words on paper and that gets me no where near my goal! So this week...I am going to focus on this phrase
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