Why am I so optimistic in December and by end of January, I am looking for a reset button?? I had so many plans and thoughts and yeah none of the above happened.
Outta My Mind did come out...March 25th. The first collab piece is almost done (Over 1500 eyes on that!) and there is a second in the works for a summer release in the Gallavich community.
The past few weeks have been filled with nothing but big decisions and plans. Plot twists that I never saw coming and yet here we are. Getting back into the swing of things working the campground brought up a possibility I never saw coming and then comes Mother's Day and both my Dad's Birthdays...I have a headful.
To be honest with all of this in my head all I want is to pick up the phone and call one of the parental units and talk it all out, however that is not a possibility in my world. I mean yeah, I could get a Ouija board and talk it out, but this is a long convo that I don't want letter by letter. So, as a writer...I will do the next best thing. I will write a letter and then sit back and wait for the signs to roll in.
So here goes:
Rental Units,
Y'all all in one place so one letter to pass around, but I could use some help. There is a lot of stuff happening all at once and I have a headful of what if's and what is the worst? On top of that, it is causing the characters in my head to not be able to reach me and that is a huge problem as I have a third (Yes you read that right...1, 2, 3rd) book to write and a collaboration project coming up, so I kinda need them to speak to me.
And yes Mom, they are a little dark and twisty and about boys kissing boys, but I did it. I have two books out in the world that have my name on it and a third one on the way with a lot more planned.
Dad, I met Chris Titus and told him thank you for us. He said it is stories like ours that keep him going. Took three attempts to do it, but I did it without crying.
Dad, the work ethic you taught me is one of the reasons I am dealing with all the decisions to be honest. I have one workplace wanting me full time and one not wanting to lose me. But in all of this, how do I not lose me and still have the time for the writing, marketing, and everything else for my retirement plan? Can you please explain that to me??
See Mom and Dad, when you talked about all the crafting and using your skills and creativity to make money...I was listening and paying attention. In four years, the plan is to spend all day sipping iced coffee and talking to these characters in my head as I transcribe their adventures.
In other news, the husband is still the best man in the world. He is my rock and yet my biggest pain in the ass and I can't do it without him even 15 years later. He holds me tight and lets me fly all at the same time. I am also spoiled rotten and it is all his fault.
We got a dog and he is super sweet...a block head but he is perfect for us.
And your grandkid? Well, what can I say? That kiddo is the most amazingly, sweetest, kindest, weird kid you'll ever meet. She knows who she is and is unapologetically herself. I have no idea where she would have gotten that from, but here we are. She dreams big and loves bigger.
I know the last time we talked...I was wondering about moving back to New York and here we are. We are surviving but on the edge of thriving. One of the made decisions, we are moving, hopefully this is the last one, to a three-bedroom place where I will have an office, a big kitchen, a deck to enjoy my coffee on, room to send the kiddo outside-even if all she does is take her phone out to the porch...at least there is sunlight.
The rest...well as I receive signs and the summer plays out, I will figure it all out and let people know when it is time.
And just like that, the noise in my brain has quieted for the moment. It is true, no matter how old you get a chat with the parental units helps. They know that stuff that is not there for all the world to see, but for the first time in a few weeks, my head is clear and I may be able to write again!
Gonna try one more time to make this a monthly thing...a newsletter so to speak as to what is happening in my world and what is coming in the bookish/fanfiction area of my life.
So till Next time-
Audie G.
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