The definition of Insanity

 So here I am almost mid way through #motivatedmarch. Seeing a lot of good changes...steps on point, workout goals being met and can see some changes in the scale and in my body..but there is a huge area where I am dragging my feet...My eating.

So, while yes I am not binge eating nor am I restricting, I am tracking, but I am not fully eating the right kind of foods. Nor am I seeing the scale move as fast as I would like and I am not talking the weight number. I am talking about the visceral fat number, the age my body is due to all the other numbers, the Body Fat % rate. Not changing...or barely moving. I honestly believe, I have an underlying fear....

 I have mentioned it before...I have an underlying fear of being skinny...fit, tone....I have ALWAYS been big...since I was in my early teens...So my personality was shaped by being the fat kid, I learned the fat jokes to fire back at the bullies, I learned to love me...I dealt with all the anger....but I have lost the same 50 pounds over and over and over....again. Every time I think I am ready to power through, back in the insanity circle I go. SO....what is a girl to do???






Well what this girl did, I prayed. I sat down and I prayed and I had a long talk with God....I essentially had a come to Jesus meeting...with myself. It was time to make a huge change...but I have tried EVERY diet possible...I have done the 80/20 split. I only eat fast food occasionally. I quite soda with exception of one every once in awhile. Was totally off it for a few months and yet...I was still getting in my own way, I was still self sabotaging. During my meeting....I was given the answer...The Low Glycemic Index plan.

Long and short of it...More Veggie and Fruits, less grains and things of that nature. Instead of counting carbs, there are lists of foods, books that explain it. Here is how it works, I do not look at just the calories, I look at the carbs and the ingredients. If it is filled with stuff I can not pronounce...well it is not for me. But, I have a cheat sheet....

Lists of what to eat and a few recipes 

I am still building this board. It is a work in progress, but I have everything I need for week one. I am starting Monday, next weeks blog will have a wrap up and let you know where I am still struggling and how easy it can be. See, I have two others in the house. They are not on weight loss journey nor are they looking to over haul their lifestyle...I mean seriously, how much of an overhaul does a 4 year old need?

This is where the teamwork between me and my God come in. He lead me to the plan, He has given me all the tools and research materials. I mean seriously, I bought an airfryer to make cauliflower tots. I have to put in the footwork. So I made a meal plan, I dumped the junk, and I am loaded up with all the foods I need for this plan.


This is a huge change...but you ever get that feeling you are about to hit your stride...like find your calling and this is it?? I have that feeling about it!! So I will be weighing and measuring on Sunday night...No pics (I know shocking I take pictures of everything!) I am not doing any pictures till March 31st!

I am doing this because I am trying to pull back from being digital all the time...I am wanting to get back into other hobbies like scrapbooking and I am putting together a book of Godfrey Family Recipes. All of this means more time off computer and more time woosahhing lol.

I think this will help with the self sabotage and allow me to focus on MY progress. I am so excited to see how the first week of this goes. A social media detox and just a chance to create and get back to a hobby that connects me to my Mom. Some true self care.

I am doing this because, my recovery. I am only strong and in the place I am in, because I am in recovery. Without it, I am more concerned with food and binge watching not walking shows on Netflix. No housework, no schoolwork...just eating and TV. So I am fighting for me. I am giving this whole new lifestyle everything I got!

 I love this person I am becoming a little more every day! I am not afraid anymore...let the changes come! I want to see how far I can take this....I have not seen the scale say under 200 pounds since I was a freshman in Highschool...in 1994.

I am going to rock this new lifestyle, I am gonna make the most out of every day, I am going to embrace who I am and who I am becoming....as well as love myself just as I am every step of the way!!!

 Just for today...my God has this. He will get me through this and in the end...I will be not only stronger, but stronger in faith! Stay tuned to the big things coming as I get further into this new plan.