Anyway, today I had this hit me full force about the one day closer. See as an army wife, every time the hubby leaves for a mission or whatever bed time is a time to have a mini dance party because while I hate getting into an empty bed...I am one closer to homecoming!! Then I was doing my morning step work and prepping for a meeting and all of a sudden an AHA moment...
Every night, I am one closer to my recovery than I was the day before, so now I do a full on happy dance!!I have survived another day staying on plan and binge free.
To some this may not be a huge deal...but for me, this is a huge milestone. I have done this back and forth thing for so many years. I have been so disgusted with myself, felt like so much of a failure, and just so defeated...I didn't care.
Motivation came and went, as new friends came and went, it was harder and harder to stay motivated. It was hard because instead of focusing on the current 24 hours, I was making plans for what I was going to where in months ahead, and I was focusing on the end...not how to get to the end. Now that I have started this current path...I am focused only on the 24 hours in front of me!! I have a plan of eating, a plan of action, finally found a meeting I feel right in!! Like all diet plans, workout plans, and stuff...finding the right meeting is important too.
The blog is taking a turn again...this is will be a focus on my journey thus far. I will be openly talking about my recovery, my struggles, and more importantly spreading awareness that this program is out there for those that need it!!
Jo Dee Messina said it best:
I've felt the chill of this world cut down to the bone
I've walked many a mile down this road on my own
I've been through hell on my knees come face to face with the devil
And I know that it's hard to believe but it gets better
So remember:
Just for today...I have clarity and acceptance of where I am heading!!
