Stop trying to sell me

I am going start with this...I am not directing this to all, I have some amazing friends who sell. I am also a seller of things...but this is a growing trend and as someone with a chronic condition, it happens all the time. We all know what I am talking about. If I know you sell something and if I want more information about it, I will come to you. It is a lotion, not a used car...so before I digress...

Status, blog, you know what I mean!

I first want to apologize if I have ever come across that way. I have been told I do not, but one persons version of not high pressure may not be the other. From here on out, yup I sell the oils, have questions wanna learn more, let me know other than that...I will continue to tell you how they are working for me and in my life...I mean this is what I am using for my weight loss and they are a huge part of why I am successful this year with the current weight loss...beyond that I will not be pushing the oily water on anyone! 

With all that said....

When I post on Facebook or social media, I am in the middle of a flair, or that I am not feeling well, or that I am trying to lose weight...I expect  you to offer up what you sell to me once....after that, well

If I want more info, I will come to you. If I tell you I have a coach I work with and that her and I are in communication for when I am ready for my next program. Stop posting your links on my page in comments, quite using subtle hints in groups that have asked that you do not sell....It is not cute and some of y'all are borderline harassing with it.

Again this is not everyone!!! It is frustrating when I already have a list of pills I take and then I look at the ingredients and I have to take this list to my doc and come to find out that the lotion I just bought from you for 80.00, interacts with them and I can not use it. It is also disheartening when I can not even turn to friends and family on Facebook when I am feeling gross and ask for prayers cause I do not know who is gonna try and sell me the next miracle cure....Say it with me now:

I also want to point out, this is not just me, this a community of us. We all would appreciate it if we could just feel miserable for a day or two...I promise you if our doctors and what we use for holistic healing is not working, we do not want unsolicited advice or sales pitches. I already hurt, I am sick, I am frustrated because I have had so many good days, and that comment, is not helpful!!!! It is disheartening when it feels like you are using my condition as a way to fund your next vacation. IT MAY NOT BE THAT WAY, but that is how we feel. All we are asking is that wait till the episode is over and ask can we talk. Respect my sick day, days.....

Advertise your heart out on your own pages!!! If I come to you and ask a slew of questions and say hey lets do this, then that is what I want. But like suggested above wait till I am not in flare mode and do it in a private message, not on my public wall...cause now you are not just trying to sell me, you are using my condition for free advertising and hoping someone gets curious and checks it out...may not be the case, but that is how it can perceived.

So as a whole, the Chronic Pain Community would like to ask y'all...to PLEASE STOP!!! We are sick not desperate and willing to throw money at anything hoping it sticks.

Now, I hope you all have a great weekend...and again I am not directing this at all those who direct sale, I have respect for most of them and I am all for supporting a friend....just please don't ask me to do it when I am at my worst and borderline desperate for relief. That is not fair!

But then I bounced back

Last week we talked about how I almost relapsed...Today we talk about my comeback. Let me tell you now, recovery is a roller coaster...

The gray, that is August 23rd, when I stood and said enough, when I said I am done with the up and down...when I started recovery for the third time. Well, the third time is the charm.

I have been more diligent since the 1st of January, but I have not faltered in 175 days. I ma having bigger and bigger victories and I am having more fun. You know what they say Girl's just wanna have fun!

So I spent some time in thought this past week, and I do apologize that nothing was posted on Friday or Saturday, but I do not think I stopped moving either day till late and could not process a full thought.  But, before I digress completely....here is what I learned this week.

 Self pity is a wasted emotion, yes please let me feel sorry for myself because I can not eat a candy bar after 8:30....but I am able to bend over and pick up something off the floor, a twin size blanket is the perfect snuggle blanket for me and my mini...but yes let me feel sorry for myself...

*disclaimer this is how I feel about me doing it and I am not discrediting it as an emotion nor am I putting down those that struggle with it. I used to and from time to to time still do...this blog is my journey back from that and at times is blunt and harsh...inner dialogue only and always. But as always MY blog, not a bakery so I do not sugar coat*

 I also realized that yes it may suck sucking down ice water when I would rather be crushing late night snacks with my girls....I would rather be able to shift comfortably in my seat at the theater with my girls. I mean seriously if I had kept partaking in the late night I wouldn't be able to sit in a chair at the movies

 I also have to stop planning so far ahead and stop pouting so much about what I have missed out on already. I could not do this, but in a few months I should....but then in a few months I still can't...now I am disappointed and right back in that crazy cycle. Like here is the deal, I bought a size of a shirt that should have been huge and baggy...it was not. I was upset and was ready to throw in the towel. Then I looked at the material and the fact I am in a sports bra....OH yea, clothes made of that cling and a regular bra will change the look. Because I paused and stayed present.

 This week I hit some milestones and this week I started Phase 3!!

Here are the side by sides!! The numbers are below...but this is where I bounced back...I realized that I am a mere 3.4 pounds away from being under 300 pounds again!!! I am this close to losing the first 10% of my body weight!!

So I am gonna sign off...this is not one of my best, but I am in a thought mode for a better one on Friday....this was the follow up to last week and to show you that even when you want to quite,

there is a reason to keep going! Till Friday.....