Do I stay or Do I go??

 Can I be honest for a moment? I came close to becoming complacent. I was being told how great I looked. I was seeing MAJOR differences and was thinking about settlin' into this body. Then I had a come to Jesus meeting with myself and Yup..NOT TODAY!! NOT TODAY!!! I have more work to do!!

Now this does not mean I did not take a moment to have dance party...I mean seriously who really ever NEEDS a reason to dance party? I celebrated where I am, where I am no longer residing.

  I sent those praises up and had my own little personal praise and worship session with Apple Music and their Christian radio station...amazing station btw, anyway before I digress...I have to keep going!! I have to do this not only because of little eyes watching me, but because I am living in a new truth of being disciplined....not in the sense of the word we grew up with, but in the sense that I will stay the course and on plan mostly to accomplish my goals!

I set a weight loss goal of 100+ pounds...I am no where near that....why stop now?? If I feel this good with what I have accomplished thus far, how great will I feel and look when I hit that goal?

So I will stay on this bridge and stay the course. Even when it gets hard and even when I throw a hissy fit or two because it is hard and I don't wanna anymore....It is okay to do this...

It is okay to cry, scream, yell...THROW THAT FIT!!! What is not okay, is settlin', throwin' in the towel. I am not GIVING UP this time. I refuse to start over yet again! I mean seriously, I played tag and soccer with a VERY active 4 year old mini me...who would give that up? It may have only been for a few minutes, but better than no minutes and barely making it to the chair outside!

That is why I stop and give praise and thanks!!! I am a fun Mommy. When she sits and snuggles and sings I love my Mommy, mommy, mommy because she plays with me...that is why I do what I do. That is why I push for one more song when I am playing just dance, just one more song when I am walking it out, just one more song when I am doing a Zumba workout. Just one more today than yesterday!

In my readings this morning as I am thinking about saying that is it, if the rest comes off cool if not I am okay with that too...This is one of the first thing I read. Well, I guess I am staying the course. I am pushing forward to the goals I have set. I am doing this because the dreams I have in my head and in my heart were not put there by any picture in a magazine, no man, no artist in the movies or on the radio...they were put there by God and by living in His hope and in the faith that it will come to be...He is drawing me closer to my dream by handing me the tools and putting the people in my life I need to be successful at this dream!!!

No one person or event is a coincidence. They are all part of a bigger plan that will allow us to grow, to be blessed, and to succeed in this life that He has planned and prepared for us. At times we wonder why, how, or even what??? But when the plan becomes visible...when he reveals what the blessing was...It is amazing and overwhelming.

So to answer my question...do I stay or do I go? I stay the course....Not today Satan, not today will you get in between God and the plan he has for my life!!

 As I wrap this up, this morning I heard a new song that just sums it all up...no matter how many times I falter, I start to wonder or question if I am doing the right thing, God is amazing and will always come through....

Just for today....I want a restored passion for moving forward and fight the urge to settle once again!