6 years and counting....

Technically, it is on the 7th that the Blog turns 6, but work and stuff so we are celebrating early!!!!!

So, I have been going back and rereading some of the older blogs and wow! Here we are six years, 154 total entries, and 7,765 views, and five name changes later. I started as the Mad Dieter, then it was all about being In the Midst of Chaos, from that to Spoiled Mama, into a Chronic Warrior, and then finally Audie's Coffee Corner. While I had Audie in the name with the Chronic Warrior, in the 6 years I have been writing this, this is the first time I have been truly just me. No gimmick, no play on words, just Me doing what I love...drinking coffee and writing.

I have these grand plans, I have this thought that I am going to get to writing on here weekly, and then life happens. I also had years and months where I just went ghost with this, and like most things in my life...I really lacked consistency and commitment.

It was not that I did not want to write or that I had nothing to write about, I mean this is a blog about my life...There is always something to write about and going on. What was lacking was the drive and the clarity of why I was doing it. I was also lacking the time...or so I thought!

This year I have been buckling down and really getting to the root of a few issues. And by this year, I mean like I started this in like July. See last October, I fell off...again. I fought and I was determined, and then I got this promotion at work and I swore I did not have time for anything anymore...

That turned into I will get back to it when January rolls around...you know like I do every year, goals and I go through this whole Fight Back February....and by March, I am MIA...and this year I had an incident where my BFF was not accessible and that is a whole other thing...but part of my retreat. In May, I started really digging into a few things. A lot had to do with Coach Tulin and not only her coaching, but her Fit has No Size community and work I am doing in there (Not open at the moment, but next time it does...SO WORTH IT!!!!). I got through Dad's Birthday, Dad's Birthday, Father's Day, Mom's Birthday and I believe Mother's Day was in there too...and I started to feel the gears slip.

So I needed a focal point. I need a shift, and I knew it needed to start in the mind. So in August, I started the Just for Today Project. In that mindset, I focused on just the 24 hours ahead, and in this I found not only I waste a lot of time, I have a lot more time than I thought I did. 

It started as just a blurb on Facebook, then it turned into a blurb on Instagram too, and then I changed the page and the name here...well started a whole new page because, well Facebook was afraid I was going to confuse people with the switch...So, yup new page! And I merged them!



By the end of August I could feel I was on the verge of something HUGE! I started Liift4 (and yes, I know I mentioned all of this before, but the recap was a necessity just hang with me for a bit) in September. Now that we have recapped...

Today, I did 60 squats, 30 of two variations, holding a 30lb dumbbell...I have completed 20 workouts on the right days and in the morning....I have missed maybe 2 or 3 days posting on social media in over 60 and I opening myself up in various poses, pictures, and I am no longer toeing the comfort zone line....and then I ended today with a dye job....okay not ended...I did it mid afternoon, but I went back to the dark...My burgundy. The hair color that gives me so much confidence because I feel like it just completes me and my gray green eyes.

I am feeling like me...I am getting the workouts in, I am getting my confidence back, I am finally feeling like I am enough...I am working on me each and every day. I am fighting back against what derails me EVERY FREAKING YEAR!!!! I am not scared that it is October, I am embracing it is October. I am not running from the issues, I am just running...well sprinting but it is a start!

I am so ready to see what is to come, but damn if I not going to enjoy every day as the day it is. I am loving the look on my mini's face when I am doing something new like the running, or playing soccer, or just walking....I am loving the changes I am finding DAILY in my body and in my mind set. I am applying the coaching not only to my fitness, but to other areas of my life. It is affecting a lot of the things that I am working on. There is more to come, but as this is already a long one...I am going to end it here.

This is not a promise or a wish or a goal of writing more or any of that other stuffs...
This is simply me saying I am here! I am sticking with it and I have more years of writing...I still have the goal of hitting 10,000 views and I still have the goal of hitting one a week for 52 weeks...who says it has to be a specific day of the week?

So I am signing off and learning to enjoy the journey and taking it one day at time. Stopping to enjoy the changes and celebrate it instead of zooming past it for the what next!