Reflecting

So I have been at this diet thing for about a month and a half now and feeling pretty good.  I also realize that Monday is Veterans Day and Thanksgiving is not far off so I wanted to take a minute and do some minor reflecting and give thanks for a few things in my life.

First I have to say thank you to all Veterans, past, present, and future.  I was a Navy Brat and I am currently an Army Wife.  Been trained for this job since I was small and know most of the ins and outs of things, but damn if the acronyms don't trip me up.  I am learning though and have gotten a handle on most of it.  I have numerous veterans in my family and my extended family as well.  No one knows the true sacrifice of these men and women, and the family's of these men and women as well.   At a moments notice they could be gone for a week, a day, a month or a year.  You never know what a phone call might bring and you never know when I will be late for dinner means dinner a week from the night you get the message.  But these men and woman do what they do for our country and I stand behind and beside my solider firmly.

I am thankful for so many things this year and one of the biggest is my family.  I have a beautiful little girl who is almost 5 months old. I have a husband who makes me a priority and feel good about what I am doing for me.  I am thankful I have a roof over my head, a kitchen over flowing with groceries, and a light that comes on when I flip a switch. I made it through my first year of marriage, peacefully is a big THANK YOU.  I am thankful that my health scare was dealt with quickly and I got a clean bill of health back.  I also am thankful I had the Mom I did.  My mom passed away three years ago last month and did not get to meet my husband or my daughter but she has been with me every step of the journey to get to this point.  She taught me a lot of things from how to cook, to scrap booking, to how to stand up for me.  I am thankful of the time I got to spend with her and how much of an impact she had not only on us (meaning me and my sisters) but on a community as well.  My mom always had a smile on her face, made the best of everything, and made a lot with very little.  Because of her I know the value of a dollar and how to make it stretch when needed.  I miss my mom, but am thankful for the legacy she left behind.  Tomorrow is never guaranteed...if you love someone let them know and if you are thankful for them, don't wait till Thanksgiving to tell them.

Happy Dieting

Eating to make it all go away....till you find it behind you

If hunger is not the problem, then eating is not the solution. ~Author Unknown

Best quote I have heard in awhile.  There are many of us, I included, who turn to food when the world kicks us.  Well, I myself had to figure out....pizza would not solve the problem caused by some words used by an asshole.  Reese's Cups only made me happy for about the 20 seconds to eat them...Coffee on the other hand is my other best friend...has never let me down, and I can always depend on it to be a cure all.  But I digress...

What do we do?  We stop looking to the food as an escape.  If an idiot pisses you off, let the idiot know he did.  Otherwise you are gonna go home, eat something you don't need and still not feel better.  I DID this for years till I figured out why and how it all started.  This is a personal journey and while I have started healing and dealing with this, this is too much of a public forum to dish about my past, besides you never air your dirty laundry in public (Thanks Mom).  You have to do this for you, figure out where the turning point was...get mad, real mad, and then take a walk to blow off the steam.  Eating can be an addiction and just as Alcoholics have their 12 steps...so do we.  The first step is the same....admit there is a problem,  from there take the steps to fix it.  You have the power over the food.  So how do we do this....find a person to talk to, a sponsor so to speak...when you are looking for a fix call.  It will take some time.  My name is Audie and it has been 5 weeks since my last twinkie.....crazy as it sounds.  It works.  

So yeah if we are not eating our problems away, what are we doing...Holy shit we are growing as people and making people responsible for the words and actions.  We are making our situations better and in the process as we are shedding pounds and shedding the baggage that contributed to the pounds in the first place.  If a friend likes you fat and stops talking to you when you get skinny, well you bet you were there to make them feel better and heaven forbid that you grow as a person.  

Another thing is that with the whole weight loss journey, it is not just the outside that is changing, we are making changing inside as well. The thing about change is it scares people so make sure the people you are around can adapt to it.  As the outside is looking better the inside is feeling better and together it makes for an awesome person all the way around.  

So yeah, time to go refill the coffee cup and meeting next week....no one bring doughnuts.  Happy Dieting.