The song at the beginning will make sense by the end, I swear! BUT FIRST....
I have to pause and say a prayer of THANK YOU JESUS I SURVIVED WEEK 3!!!! Holy wow, week 3 was a dozy and I plan on coming back to it in next weeks blog as I recap the first half of Liift 4. So before I digress, Faith, emotions, and comfort zones...
This week I have been emotional, I have been out of my comfort zone, and I have been overly socially awkward and I have loved every minute of it...because I have faith....still confused? Good, because I am too...so let me explain it.
See, in the past few years, more specifically the past few months, my foundation has been shaken up some. Like seriously, I have been through some earthquakes, and each time I keep standing back up,(even if it did take 2 years after my Mom, but that is a whole other blog and coming next Month)
So I realized that there is only one true way to explain that, God's Got me...for God to have me so concretely through all the years I told Him to Go away, using that other F word very boldly....deep down I had Faith. I had Faith that every step away I took from, He had counted and knew just how far I was going to go before Faith brought me back.
This week it became very evident, I was also gonna have to draw the strength from my journey. I was not strong enough to see this journey all the way through on my current strength level. I have to spend every morning in prayer and refocusing my journey to just for today and one day at a time! This is where my addiction and recovery come in. I know if I do not spend every morning in a moment (at least) of prayer and journal it out a bit either on paper, on social media, or both...I will not have the strength to get through the day...and that brings me to emotions...
This week they have come in waves...I have dealt with anger, frustration, fear, and even a moment or two of sadness...But, I have felt everyone of them. I have not stuffed them with food or just ignored them. I have enjoyed laughing with friends at the bus stop, cried tears at new abilities, and cried tears that I can not share these moments with some of my biggest cheerleaders...even though, I know they know.
I was able to do this because I am not doing it alone...I am tearing down walls, I am getting things handled, and I am getting back into what I love (planning, blogging, cooking...the list goes on) because of having a support system in real life and on social media. I have a community rooting me on and I also pour back into them....
Faith and Friends/Family will get you far in this world. They can push you and ensure you are not alone in this crazy journey we call life. They will ensure you are not alone...but there is a key note
I need to add as I wrap this up!
While, I know I am not alone, I can lean on the others when I feel like I don't wanna, when I have good and bad days...but what I can not do is dump and run, I can not talk all about how I did not wanna, so I didn't and then give up...At the end of the day...I have to get up and do the work! It truly is my behind and I have to move it and I have fix what I am eating...this journey is 25% faith 25% community and 50% note to self to get over own ish!
I am truly the only person holding me back...and that is not a place I want to be anymore!
Till Next Sunday I leave you with this....
Take a deep breath,
Take a leap,
Do something that scares you...even if you do not know where to start...just start!
You will never know what you are capable of sitting in that comfort zone!
