My World's not falling apart...It's falling into place!!!

BUT FIRST THE END/START OF MONTH:
September great month...I destroyed 17 pounds, removed 3.2 inches all over, I hit the step/mile goal and surpassed it, and I dropped a couple  numbers on the BMI scale, I reduced my body fat by 2%!!! If you noticed there was no use of the word lost....I changed my vocab...I no longer am losing any of the numbers above...when you loose something you start looking for it! I don't want to find it or look for it...so yup new mindset lol. Only 20.6 lbs to go and the first weight goal is met and on to the next!!! 

I want to share my next six months plan (set this last week before weight and tape):

 To the untrained eye...this looks like a a weird hodge podge of what?? 
So here is what it all means: 

1. I have, well had 95 miles now more like 85 miles, between me and the 500 lifetime mile award on fitbit.
2. I have, or well um had, 24 pounds to lose to meet the first goal.
3. maintain my 3.8 GPA
4. Hit 5000 blog views
5. Finally organize and finish reclaiming my house 
6. Get on a schedule and fully use the planner I built
7. Work everyday towards these goals.

Well now it is out there and all, the accountability is in place.

Now that housekeeping is done...the blog!!!

So I started the steps over again...not my days abstinent. Those are intact, but I felt myself slipping down a slope, so I restarted them. I mean, I was doing amazing back in April when I first started, so why not take it back there. So now I spend my mornings once again in prayer, meditation, and really focusing on not just me, but what God is trying to say to me.

So this morning I switched to the Christian rock station I like on Amazon for when I do this. I have saved my favs and added to my playlist, but that is another blog in itself. So before I digress...The first song that comes on is Casting Crowns-Just be held. I am bopping and reading and then a line got LOUD!!!! Really LOUD...Your world's is not falling apart, it is falling into place!!! AN adult version of Let it go!! A truly amazing song...I had to stop and share it to Facebook. So anyway,

It got me thinking...Back to the beginning of this current journey. When my husband said and did what he did...I really thought everything that we had built was gonna fall apart!! I thought it was gonna be miserable, I really thought that we would have issues....I thought me myself I can not NOT eat or drink things on my no fly list....God, though, he knew...he knew that not only would we both be successful, it wold be the most amazing thing for us....Honestly if I had knew what I could gain if I put the Reese's down...I would have done it a long time ago!!! But like they say in the movies...timing is everything.

So now I can honestly say that my world did not fall apart, it fell into place. The more time I spend out of the house, the more time I want to spend at home....with an urgency to keep up with house stuff. Before I never went anywhere or no one came over. I literally had no where to go and all day to get there so who cares if I did the dishes only when we had none?

The more time I spend talking to people, the more I want to go where people go. The more I spend outside in the big big world, the more my little corner becomes a safe haven and no longer a prison. The more I focus on what the calendar holds for the week...the less I focus on the rough days coming. And when they do arise...with a little help from my friends...I got this. And my favorite part is these friends get the Nope...Not today!!! I finally have things under a control...that I can live with.

All of the above would not have been possible if I had not returned to my roots...if I had not said you know what God, you got this...here this is a heavy load...you carry it.

 Now do not get me wrong, I know there is still a lot of work on my part. I can not ask him to help me maintain a 3.8 GPA, turn over the stress of the assignment load, and then not do the work cause God's got me...yeah that is so not how that works!!!

I have to do the work, have the faith, but leave the worry in God's hands!!!

So for today I am working on the above and purging my daughters room....if no one hears from me in 72 hours, send a rescue party!!!

Roots Before Branches

Hey I am figuring out all kinds of cook things I did not know before!!! I have had a blog for almost 3 years and I just figured out how to add music from youtube....look out y'all I guess you can teach an old dog new tricks!!!



Anyway...there was a reason I went looking for how to do this...yesterday I got to spend the day kiddo free with an amazing group of strong women who each one embodies something different, but yet I know they were all placed in my  little space of the universe for a reason. There is a Higher Power working here!!
God has not only a plan, but a sense of humor. You know what they say timing is everything...I mean I tried this two years ago. I grew up in churches....but see without all of these pieces would this time be the time that I plant roots and that I not only grow...but I flourish!!  I had to have roots before I could have branches. (Song is at the end!!)





A little back story, I grew up military...I truly don't think I have ever planted roots...I have always moved around a little here and there...and when I first heard this song on Glee,  (Yes it is Glee's version, yes I know it is a cover and not the original, and Glee in itself is whole blog post on it's own!!) anyway before I totally digress, I didn't like it...because again, the timing was all wrong. It was not in God's plan that at that moment...the lightbulb go off. Well his current plan is becoming much more clear...it was time for me to plant my roots. It was time for me to fully figure out not just who I am but where is my place in this world...I mean seriously there had to be more than the trip to the commissary every two weeks...occasional Target or Wal-Mart...

There was...and all it took was an invite, a bible study geared to what was going on and a feel that I was finally in a place I could call home.

I watched Army wives and I knew that the Tribe aspect that they had was a TV thing and not real...it did not mean I did not wish it was possible, but yesterday looking around the room as we laughed and talked....I realized I had found my tribe. We may fuss, we may have our differences....but at the end of it...we know that we can rely on each other to get the job done and for the added prayers as needed!!

So, as I wrap this up, just for today I am going to enjoy where I am at...I am going to relax and know that I am right where I need to be. My roots have been planted....now it is time for the branches!!