I am so guilty of saying I will do it tomorrow. I PUT everything off. I set a goal and I say I am gonna do it and then I procrastinate so bad...I just move the date till tomorrow. But then tomorrow becomes today and then I am stuck in a vicious cycle.
Well, I quite smoking on a whim. I just one day randomly said you know what...lets go to the vap shop. It may have been that 90% of the women I hang out with don't smoke, it may have been the timing, it may have been just one of those random things I did for my Mini...But the point is since that day, I have had one cigarette and didn't like it and stayed away from them. Enjoying having the money for stylish hair cuts and colors, for thirty one bags and stuff, and for jamberry and makeup.
I decided I was gonna go back to school and obtain my bachelors...I have a 3.8 GPA, I keep up with classes, and I constantly am thinking about the next class and excited to be working in the medical field where I feel at home in...which was another reason I wanted to quite smoking. You can't smoke on 97% of hospital grounds anymore.
So is it my weight-loss always gets shoved to that tomorrow? Why is it when I get in a grove with it...I get to a point where water is second nature or this or that the healthier option and then I just quite....is it fear? Is it the unknown? What is it that stops me? It's all me...I know my husband doesn't stand in my way, he doesn't sabotage me, and he supports me...not a requirement for us to stay together! My kid is not the reason either....if anything she motivates me to do this.
It is me...I start losing weight, people comment...I say thanks-and I am done...but I put the weight back on. The challenge group I am in ends-and I am done...but I put the weight back on. I mean I have not had a Reese cup or a bag of Doritos since APRIL!!!!
So I sat down and I put it all in perspective, I stopped looking at the I need to lose 140 pounds...I bought a fitbit zip and said yup I am gonna do this...and I did for awhile but again I got bored and stopped. I thought about all the good foods I would never have again....and in my head a long healthy life instead of Twinkies sounds good...BUT there is still a voice saying just one won't hurt.
I post random pictures and I try to stay motivated and something always happens...well I have anew plan...
Here is the long and short of it....I am only gonna focus on the day it is...So starting on Saturday (tomorrow for all the normal people) my new set of goals and plan of action starts....
Saturday I will do an hour of housework, I will drink 100 ounces of water, I will hit 5000 steps, and I will do two hours of school work. I will also take my meds, clean all the vap juice bottles I have saved for oil purposes and I will cook dinner.
I also will start using the planner I started. I am gonna have to since life is gonna get crazy in a few weeks when school starts and I have a few new activities and volunteer things going on.
So the new goal: Plan the night before for the next day. Meal plan and make grocery lists, plan, plan, plan....that is the focus. I have heard it all over the place that failing to plan is a plan to fail. So new goal plan to prevent failure. No more taking things weeks or days ahead of time...bring it back to what was so successful in April and May...Just for today. No focus on weight loss...no focus on exercise, no focus on whether or not the scale is moving...the focus is on just participating in the day and checking every item off my small manageable to do list for that day.
So just for today....I am recommitting to just for today and taking tomorrow out of my vocabulary. I also am planning to be successful and do a little bit more than I did yesterday...because once a day is yesterday...it is no longer my problem!!! The only exception is I will be keeping a tally at the end of every blog the tally of pounds till my next reward...which is not food because I am not an animal or a pet.
Pounds till next reward: 38
