Progress not Perfection

 Welp, I have been at this for awhile now, almost 2 years to be exact. I am still not at goal weight, I am not even close. I still struggle with what to eat and I still make the wrong food choices from time to time...I mean at over a year and a half, I should be doing this lifestyle change thing perfectly, so I am just gonna give up......


Yeah, about that....NOT EVEN CLOSE! But, so many times I have done this. So many times just before the breakthrough, I give up. I have a secret...I am there right now, I am standing at a crossroads, I have stood at so many times!

 I am currently at the point where I give up. I did because I was doing it for all the wrong reasons, I was doing it for everyone but me. Because I HAD to, and without the one person who would carry me through the hardest of days, the most white knuckle I am not going to binge days....God. This return to the faith has been a game changer.

 I have said it many times, patience is not one of my virtues. I want it and I want it now! Through this journey and being a mom, I see my patience developing. I also see it in a way that has been a game changer for me. I am trying to teach children to have patience and grant grace to others, just as God has done with us....but I stopped dead in my tracks, when was the last time I offered myself patience and grace.












 When is the last time I allowed myself some grace from slipping up and having a couple of Oreo cookies without feeling like I had to do a double workout? Honest answer, Monday night.

The reason I can do this, I have and I see progress. Well you are eating Oreo cookies how is that progress? Simple, I did not have a row of cookies...I had 3. I can say this with complete confidence due to getting out of my own way. I have made changes, I have started the low GI lifestyle, but this is a lifestyle...I have to be able to live with it. I can live without oreo's and one day I may be able to skip them completely. But that day is not today and I am a practicing for a fully healthy life...

 I am putting my whole life into perspective currently. I have like 75,000 things running through my head and SO much that I want to do. But  I am going to have fun going for it! I am going to soak in all the knowledge I can, I am going to research everything....I am going to find my voice...and I am going to love every minute of the struggle to break through!

So just for today, I am going to finish up some computer work, some goal setting, and then I am finally going to take a break, clean the house turn up the music and just rock my Thursday....1 year and 7 months to the day I said enough is enough...I finally made it to,

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